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Jonny Bearcub Stiffarm: Moving home

Posted by Jonny Bearcub Stiffarm on May 21, 2010
Tags: montana

May 18th, 2009 - 1:35 pm MST : A one way trip of 948 miles kicks off a new chapter in my life. My younger brother, Vince, and I pulled up in front of my old house with a fully packed rental truck. My younger sister, Gaynell, and a few of my nephews are waiting with a cooler full of cold drinks. They would take out three pickup loads of junk and trash from inside the old house and move my things into a cleared out room I would use for storage for the next year.  

May 18th, 2010 - I can’t believe it has been one year since I left the Mile High City of Denver, Colorado, and moved back to the glorious wide open short grass prairies of eastern Montana. Back to the lands of the Nakota and Dakota peoples of the Fort Peck Assiniboine & Sioux Indian Reservation - to the place I grew up and raised my family. It has been an eventful rollercoaster ride! Arriving to a home with no water, in terrible physical condition, and with a yard that just screamed obscenities as a result of what it had become. I wasn’t sure if I was up to the tasks ahead of me and wondered for a moment if I had done the right thing making the move. But only for a moment, for I knew in my heart it was the right decision - and now I am sure of it.

Houses can be repaired and remodeled just as yards can be made beautiful. But I did not come home to do only that – I had a greater reason. For 20 years I enjoyed the city, the mountains, and the prairie to the east of Denver, but it did not give my soul what it was seeking as I began career and lifestyle changes. I felt a pull for the serenity and rugged beauty of those wind-swept prairies that had molded me as surely as the guidance of my grandparents who raised me had. I felt this urge to go “home,” and over the past few years it had grown stronger and finally it could not be denied. One has to nourish one’s ties to the land, especially if one grew up closely tied to the land. The prairies of the northern Great Plains could do that for me. I needed to be immersed into the vastness and power of nature that one can feel when surrounded by the mystery and strength of the elements of our world.

Coming home after being away for 20 years – what does this mean? On one hand it is like going to another planet where things are “oh so very different than I remembered” and yet, on the other hand, there are things so achingly familiar and comforting to one’s soul.   

Jonny Bearcub Stiffarm is director of business development for NativeEnergy.

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